Only one more month till I will hear if I can start with my hormone therapy!
Am I ready for it? When are you ready for it? I for sure can say I am nervous but I am already been living by my own identity for a year now.
It started where I told it to my family by mail so it could sink in. Then I ended up telling it to people when I had drank alcohol (doh). Now I am getting used to it, and just tell people directly.
I am not a woman but I wish I was. I am too much of a realist to expect anyone to already call me ma'am while I am not (yet). But I would appreciate anyone to stop calling me dude, man, guy or whichever.
Being transgender brings up mixed reactions. Some find it wrong, gay, creative, interesting. I love the people who appreciate you for it and I hate the ones who see it as a fetish, and even approach you as such.
There is a big group that dislikes it. Transphobes, homophobes, what is it with you guys? Yes it is pretty weird or maybe even freaky but I was already weird long time before I even knew about my feelings. Is it unacceptable? Alright. I can live with everyones opinion even if you fully disagree with what makes me happy, but why would my life concern you in such way for you to be bothered by it?
At first I was unsure about myself, coming out, being myself. Now I just rather see myself as a creative individual. I do not say I am a trendsetter but I do make my own style. Why not appreciate how people are unique in their own way instead of making fun of them for it?
A lot has changed but mostly for me mentally. Yes I am still as tall as ever but I gotten to like it (except on pictures). I practiced with my voice and if I am surrounded by people I do not know, often they do not even know what gender I am. It also happened before at parties or at the street I hear flirts or positive comments and in London someone came to me (that was adorable by the way :P) to ask me out on a date.
But while my voice isn't perfect, or when online I tell someone what is up. To be honest and upfront about it, I get negativity thrown at me. Excuse me? It was not a problem ten minutes ago. You more likely have to question yourself than to point at me saying I am in the wrong.
I already noticed the ups and downs of being transgender. You attract gay curious men who got a fetish for transgenders which is pretty disgusting. Just to mention, shemale (porn version of transgenders) is as insulting as an insult can be.
How about everyone stops being so narrow minded and lets just go with the flow, alright? Yes you got weird people, tall, short, fat, thing, disabled, old, or sheeps following the herd. Don't judge before you know someones background story.
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